bitchin'

1. i’m not good at expressing my emotions out loud
2. i have a strong will and don’t like to be told what to do
3. i’m in love with things that strongly appeal to my senses
4. i can really only get my thoughts and feelings out in writing
5. the more people i’m around the more i lose confidence
6. i’m kind of socially awkward
7. i love candles and things that smell good
8. i’m secretly sensitive when it comes to certain things
9. i have my own thoughts and opinions and sometimes i speak out before i even know enough on the topic
10. i’m a big dreamer. i’ve spent entire days laying in bed, creating my own epic love stories 
11. there are a lot of things i wish i could change about myself. i feel like i fight to overcome who i am every day.
12. the best thing about me is god.
13. i can be really irritable and mean
14. i never used to cry. i didn’t want to be seen as weak. 
15. i might be the first to listen to any of my friends but when it comes to talking about me, i don’t. i almost wish someone would pry.
16. i want to become the person that the ones who love me most see me as capable of becoming
17. i love every season. i love nature. i love the inspiration of it. 
18. you wouldn’t guess it, but i’m a romantic.
19. the way i look at life has changed as i’ve gotten older… i view it through a lens of spirituality. everything connects back to god in some way or another. everything’s about love. 
20. i’m not always the most sentimental and compassionate person, but that’s changed a lot as years go by.
21. music means a lot to me. like a lot a lot. a lot a lot a lot.
22. sometimes i wallow in self pity and those are the times i hate myself most. i have to kick myself and remember what some other people go through.
23. i really love food. i think it’s honestly a comfort as sad as that is… i’ve almost cried over food before if i’m already having a bad day. i look forward to food okay.
24. i don’t want to miss out on life.
25. sometimes i feel like this life is being wasted on me living it.
26. anyone i’ve ever considered a friend hasn’t left me. even if we haven’t talked in 10 years, i care. i probably think about you once a week or more.
27. i wish my comfort zone was a lot wider than it is.
28. i wonder if i have a hidden bravery in me that i haven’t gotten a chance to see yet.
29. i have family issues. i’ve been through more than you’d think about just by looking at me, and most people i know the best don’t even know half of it, or probably care to know. but i don’t want that to define me.
30. i’d like to know what god’s plan for me is. i’ve heard it’s supposed to be pretty awesome.

i used to put “xD” after EVERYTHING I SAID IN MIDDLE SCHOOL

bowtiedpenguin:

You see I’ve been climbing stairs but mostly stumbling down
I’ve been reaching high always losing ground
You see I’ve conquered hills but I still have mountains to climb
And right now right now I’m doing the best I can
At this point in my life

a new year’s eve tradition: sit alone in my room and listen to this song